Why is Demi Moore finally ready to talk about her marriage to Ashton Kutcher all these years later?

14 years ago, Demi Moore and Ashton Kutcher exchanged greetings at a small ceremony in the presence of her ex-husband and close friend, Bruce Willis, and the three daughters of the former couple, Rumer, Scout and Tallula .

They were one of the most commented couples in Hollywood, largely due to their age difference that some simply could not overcome. But the two men were together for eight years before separating in 2011 after a trap, a tumultuous moment for Moore that led to one of the darkest periods of his life, the one that is finally ready to open up in his new book, Inside Outside: a Memory; Properly, his documented journey of self-discovery and acceptance begins the same day as his marriage to Kutcher.

“I got lost,” said the 56-year-old woman about the period that immediately followed her separation during an interview in Good Morning America earlier this week. “I think if I looked back, I would say that I was blinded and lost.”

In her memoir, Moore went on to explain how she “lost” after separating from Kutcher, which she says came after cheating for the second time in 2011.

In addition to talking about breaking his 20-year-old sobriety by drinking alcohol and using Vicodin (taking up to 12 tablets a day, by GMA), Moore also writes about the physical and emotional agitation he’s endured including the loss of His daughters have cut off contact at some point.

It all came to a head in 2012, when she was briefly hospitalized in Los Angeles after suffering from what was reported at the time as an episode similar to a seizure at a party. After the incident made the headlines, Moore entered a rehabilitation center 20 years later and described the experience as a “deep gift”.

“Part of my life was clearly falling apart,” said Moore in an interview with The New York Times about his mental state during this period of his life. “I did not have a career, no relationship.”

“I think the fundamental question that was asked was: ‘How did I get here?’ “Moore said during his two-part session with Diane Sawyer for GMA. “From where I started to what I experienced, where have I been, how did I get here?”

And that is what he explores in his memoirs, reflecting on his problematic childhood, his relationship with his parents and the sexual abuse he suffered as a teenager as a way to recover his own life story.

Given how recondite Moore has been after her high profile romance with Kutcher, it is almost shocking how vulnerable and open she is, both in her intimate memories and in the interviews that promote it.

“I think the fundamental question that was asked was: ‘How did I get here?’ “Moore said during his two-part session with Diane Sawyer for GMA. “From where I started to what I experienced, where have I been, how did I get here?”

And that is what he explores in his memoirs, reflecting on his problematic childhood, his relationship with his parents and the sexual abuse he suffered as a teenager as a way to recover his own life story.

Given how recondite Moore has been after her high profile romance with Kutcher, it is almost shocking how vulnerable and open she is, both in her intimate memories and in the interviews that promote it.

Moore first met Kutcher in 2003 in a play in New York, just after his infamous return to acting in Charlie’s Angels: Full Throttle after a five-year break. And he admitted to having been immediately enchanted by the star of That ’70s Show, writing: “I felt like a 15-year-old girl, waiting for someone to love me.”

Her 15-year-old age difference caught her attention immediately (she was 40 years old, he was 25 years old) and some even theorized that it was an elaborate joke for her MTV Punk’d program. (As for the shock from his age gap? “He’s so dumb,” he told Sawyer.)

I was 40 years old and had a great life, “Moore reflected.” And Ashton’s adult life was just beginning, I didn’t see all that because it was inside her. ”

In 2005, they got married, exchanged vows at a Kabbalah ceremony at their home in Beverly Hills, and in an interview with Harper’s Bazaar just before the wedding, Moore said: “Talk about meeting your soulmate. I really feel that I they have given that gift. ”

But after rumors of infidelity on Kutcher’s part, Moore announced in 2011 that the couple was separating.

“With great sadness and a big heart I have decided to end my six-year marriage with Ashton,” he said in a statement at the time.

As a woman, mother and wife, I consider certain values and wishes to be sacred, and it is in this spirit that I chose to pursue my life, “said Moore’s statement, apparently referring to allegations of deception.

Kutcher issued his own statement, turning to Twitter to discuss his separation: “I will always appreciate the time I spent with Demi Marriage is one of the most difficult things in the world and unfortunately they fail sometimes, love and light, AK. ”

In December 2012, Kutcher officially filed for divorce. And that was all, with both parties rarely, if ever, talking about their marriage and collapse, as Kutcher stepped forward and discovered love with his former co-star of That ’70s Show, Mila Kunis. The couple got married in 2015 and has two children together.

In his memoirs, Moore details the breakup of his marriage for the first time, and reveals that “he entered into contortions to try to adapt to the mold of the woman he wanted his wife to be.”

According to an excerpt reached by People, Moore writes about participating in trios to please her then husband.

“I put it first,” said G.I. Jane star explains. “So when he expressed his fantasy of bringing a third person to our bed, I didn’t say no. I wanted to show him how cool and fun it could be.”

But Moore says participating in the trios seemed to lead to the alleged infidelity, writes, “Because we brought a third party to our relationship, Ashton said that it had erased the lines and, to a certain extent, justified what he did.” .

At GMA, Moore discovered he had discovered the traps via a Google Alert. He said that when he asked Kutcher if this story was true, he immediately confessed it and I think my answer was, “Are you kidding?” [Laughs] That was it. hardly breathe. ”

At an appearance in the Ellen DeGeneres Show, Moore said he had spoken to his ex-husbands before the book was published, but he told the Wall Street Journal they had not read the final product yet. .

“I would really like to interact with them before leaving,” he told the publication. “I’m sensitive to anything that makes them feel uncomfortable, I’m not interested in anyone who’s mean.”

For Moore, it’s about telling her story in her own words, not being back with her ex-husbands or family members, and telling Ellen DeGeneres, “I feel great with the point of view. which, for me, it is I have no interest in blaming or mistreating someone.The journey in the book speaks of conquering. ”

She went on: “In a sense, here is my story, my point of view, if anyone else in the book, including my daughters, saw things differently, and in some cases, they had sensitive things because that as it was my story, I did not always allow to say things that created pain when they did not speak to me so that I could share them.He was really honest about my experience. ”

And finally, the dissolution of her marriage with Kutcher was far more important than her marriage or relationship, saying to Sawyer: “I really know that some parts of what happened with the end of this relationship were catastrophic for me This was not the case, it was not just this relationship, it was really all my life. ”

He then explained: “This was the 2-year-old girl who was not safe, it really meant that I’m not nice, yes, that I do not deserve.” And that’s not about It’s all about me. ”

Nine years after the beginning of his memoirs, Moore is finally ready to share with the world everything that happened.

“I think my wish was really to get to a place where it would be good for me to see,” he told People about Inside Out’s writing at the premiere of his new film , Corporate Animals. “When there is nothing to protect, it’s a great place.”

And the biggest lesson you learned?

“Learning that I’m fine with me was a great gift I could make myself,” he told Harper’s Bazaar.

Moore is really less.